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Kiernon last won the day on July 9 2016

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About Kiernon

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  1. Anniversary Screenshot Contest

    This one turned out rather nice: "Here's your double order of stake, sir!" (In unrelated non-news: Back to lurking for me, life's still hectic and doesn't leave me a lot of downtime. Will update you lot when there's any change to my situation.)
  2. Forgive me the whining but if I don't get this out of my system somehow I'm going to explode.

    So my cat just died. On the way to the vet, with no warning besides him refusing to eat yesterday. Gastric cancer presumably.


    I'm at a loss for words. Everything reminds me of the 15 years he's been a part of my life and that he's just gone now.

    I keep losing my train of thought, the only thing that's coming to me is "FUCK!!!" Big, angry, red, capital letters, multiple exclamation marks and all, I just want to scream it at the top of my lungs. That and the icy razor in my gut.

    There's never a good timing for these things but this is the worst, there's nobody around I can talk to. I'm afraid I'm just asking for another bout of depression. Actually afraid, because I dread the havoc it would wreak on the fragile semblance of order I built in my daily life.

    I can't even decide if I want to yell or cry.

    If anyone needs me I'll be wallowing in misery under my blanket. Then trying to force myself to go out and see people.

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    2. Kiernon


      Don't you worry, you're not intruding. I wouldn't have posted this if I didn't seek dialogue.

      In fact your reply means a lot to me because I don't actually have a lot of friends and this community is precious to me. Thank you.

      The loss of a loved pet seems like something most people can empathize with regardless of knowing the other person or not.

      But if you happen to be interested in myself and why I'm making such a big deal out of this it's in part because I've had him for half my life and in part because of my mental condition.

      I'm suffering from living with depression, I'm terrible with people I'm not familiar with and I don't leave the house often.

      It's almost like I've lost a friend on Monday. 


      The last two days were hard, trying to go to sleep on Monday night in particular, but I'm slowly regaining my mental balance.

      I fiercely miss my cat but I'm not falling down the dark pit I've been afraid of.

      Things aren't all right but they could be worse.

      A huge part of this is owed to a friend who despite being unable to see me in person on account of living on the other end of Germany spent five hours on the phone talking to me.

      What my friends are lacking in quantity they make up in quality. And that seems like a fine thought to end on.

    3. Mayahuel


      Oh, I'm so glad! And I'm very happy to hear that you had someone who was such a great friend who took the time to make sure you had a shoulder to lean on. That's fantastic.

      Living with depression is a tough battle that a couple of very dear friends of mine also struggle through each day. I would never presume to know how hard that is, but I think it says a lot about your progress/coping abilities that you are open about it and that you can reach out to your friends when you need a boost. 

      On a completely different note, I think that your writing is really lovely and it was your character profile for Ryjalon that inspired me to create an IC blog of my own, which has given me all sorts of great creative outlets to explore. So thank you for that.  :-)

    4. Ciritty


      I need to visit the forum more... so sorry Kiernon :(

  3. Busy, busy, busy.

    So I've not fallen off the face of the planet, I'm just busy trying to get myself employed.

    It's not going particularly well.

    If anyone ever invents timetravel I'd like to go back six years and give myself a motivational kick in the behind. Would at least save me a lot of annoying questions.

    Yes I realize I'm older than your average applicant, what do you expect me to do about it, age backwards?

  4. Revenge

    I concur. To provide a different spin, Revenge: Best served... ...in a fashion that makes it look like anything but revenge. Until it's too late. There's nothing quite as satisfying as kindly helping people along as their own plans move them towards their doom.
  5. Merge RP Threads

    I may be misunderstanding what you're wanting but assuming we're on the topic of IC blogs in the rp section then the tag system takes good care of that, proper tagging provided. Simply clicking on the "blog" tag takes you here. I probably am misunderstanding, aren't I?
  6. What is you most memorable moments in gaming?

    I just remembered another memory that's a bit more recent than the DAoC days of old: Deadspace 3 co-op. If I've ever seen a memorable co-op campaign recently it's that one. And it only got better. A pity the DLC was such a letdown.
  7. In one of the rare occasions that see me leaving the house I'm going to see Fiddler's Green.

  8. Three Word Story [Forum Game]

    its haircut that
  9. Three Word Story [Forum Game]

    the implacable, pink
  10. The Secret World: Ultimate Edition

    I've seen it, immediately tried to spring it on the guy I'm usually gaming with but he resisted. Again. Nothing in it I don't already have, aside from the outfit and it's much to expensive just for that. And I don't have a matching hat for it anyway so I can hold off on getting it, maybe they do decide to include it for Grand Masters eventually. Or give me a way to gift the entirety of the bundle except the outfit, then I'll get one to throw at the unwashed peasants.
  11. Room 33 [Random Chat Topic]

    ​And I learned something new about religion today, thank you ​Thanks for explaining, I figured it was something like that but decided to admit defeat instead of looking up what number conversion it was.
  12. Room 33 [Random Chat Topic]

    ​Religion is not really one of my strong points, for various reasons, but wouldn't that be a dyslectic agnostic insomniac? I always thought athenists atheists were the ones believing that there is no dog.
  13. Room 33 [Random Chat Topic]

    17 out of 20 is a lot better than I would've given myself credit for. Especially since I consider myself anything but intellectual. I had to look up someone for 13, had to think about 9, and a while too, and I don't get 12.
  14. What music are you listening to?

    This thread, it needs love. So, have more Fiddler's. ...I'm starting to see a pattern. Maybe I should break away from the theme of the romantic misadventures of young men. Or maybe not?
  15. Room 33 [Random Chat Topic]

    So, I got on the bike bandwagon. The headlights don't seem to work, though. I found a workaround But then again there's still that blindfold so GET OUT OF THE WAY!